ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

FALLING

the leaves are falling like lovers falling in love someday they will part

OBLIVION

wilted leaves dangling as the sun and wind blow them to oblivion

24/7

may all the snowflakes falling purify this realm of desire freeing all those that suffer and bring peace continuously until the end of time

UNSPEAKABLE

sitting here drinking ice cold lemonade looking outside the window orange leaves glowing i wonder how much time is left for me amazing i made it this far most of it was wishing i didn’t then realizing…. i really don’t and this… that does….is unspeakable

STAY GONE

I’m still trying to get a van Trying to get away from this man He done me wrong And I can’t go on I need to leave And stay gone

SPACED OUT

the moon is full now i am out of cigarettes staring into space

LIGHT UP

  into the light   praying for justice praying for peace   into the night   fighting for justice fighting for peace   evolve into the light   no need to fight let the night be lit with stars and moonlight let silence fill the air with love may all

UN RAP juju

sitting here about to unwrap unzipping your pack then my lips touch your skin and i suck you in i quit and start again and again again my virgin lips that never kiss they only suck and blow you’ve fucked me up but i still go sucking like a hoe

ALWAYS DREAMING

    awakening from my sleep a night of dreaming to another dream…. awake                  

TIME

the rocks that rumble silently are mine earth sounds i hear beat rolls across my room i scratch the beat  that’s dead created time and weave into this solid mass time loom rock is the photograph of times ruin continuation clings like a disease yet the living sleep inside a

4 AM BLUES

  it’s half past three i had my pee smoking a cigarette for free   waiting for sleep to kick in the cats still out and i am in   my neck is sore coughing from smoke the world is dying it’s not a joke   my hands are dry

DWELLING

  the gyms are closed work is slow he’s home more often nowhere to go he drives me crazy his sloppy ways he doesn’t wash his stuff always i tell him he has to take a bath he thinks i am a bitch for that he scares me when he

EMPTY BLATHER

    it’s half past two i’m still not tired the crickets are chirping the cat is pawing my hand is numb from holding the phone i should just take my pills so i can sleep i think i’ll get up and take a leak then i’ll smoke a cigarette

SPANISH CHEF

my heart just jumped when i saw your name you sexy man that cooks from Spain          

TIN NIGHT US

  the house is still the salt lamp glowing cat on my legs crystals flowing i hear the sound of crickets chirping they’re not outside but in my ears lurking                

MUSHY

one flick a day is all i can handle i’m getting to be an expert fandal so many flicks not worthy of watching amazing how easy to get brainwashing hollywoods job to entertain is really to mush our little brain easy it is to control the masses when our eyes

HEAVENLY

quiet and peaceful in this house a bowl of popcorn   on my lap cheesecake in the refrigerator too it is so heavenly with nothing to do                    

DEAD LOVE

my cat went outside hunting for mice to bring me as an offering   i open the door stepping on the mouse that lay on the altar floor   the mouse and it’s guts bulging out for me to see she really loves me   is this what the gods

CAT & MOUSE

    it’s the midnight hour and i feel hot   the fireplace is roaring but I’m not   bored to tears nothing excites me   wish I was tired but sleep dispites me   I don’t know what to do with myself surrounded by walls inside this house  

TALKING TO MYSELF

  after a long stiff winter   time for new beginnings that feel never-ending again and again again     apple blossom buds blooming in the warm morning sunshine   a sweet gentle rain     thunder crashing and a heavy downpour to cleanse my mind of icicles dripping like

FOIE GRAS

your love deep inside my body dead like winter you in ecstacy                

GYPSY VAN

letting go   after all these years accumulating everything to survive in comfort   while dying inside   now realizing how freeing it is to just let go   to get ready for my next show   where i will have less   but will still try to be as

LUXURY

  i let go of my job i let go of my bills but i still hang on to my toliet how i love it so i do not want to let go i just want to go in luxury            

MESSED UP

sitting here enveloped in this mess i made looking for a cure for my body aches my bath is waiting so i can soak  it up living the life of leisure writing poetry so i can see the mess i made before i go on to the next mess until

HIATUS

I never know what I’m gonna write These words just come Like they turned on the light In darkness I am cool No words are needed Then they turn the damn light on And something is kneaded So I roll it around on my unfloured Thing here Sometimes it sticks

INTUITION

  my body heavy like a mountain in love the sweet smell of earth   my mothers voice embedded in every cell the buddha within   if you ignore her she will find another way she never gives up   learn how to listen her voice is very subtle until

HEAVY

when my love was pure you came inside of me but i didn’t know it was you your light gave me buoyancy but now it’s slowly leaving me deflated like flat tires on a truck                              

ALONE

  alone   i am   blissful   never sad   but sadness is in love with me it lingers like a cats tail between my legs   caressing me with it’s scent   it’s hell bent   to make me feel real   so i can stroke the soft

SUMMERTIME

SAD

    don’t worry i don’t want you anymore   i wasn’t good enough for you all your expectations cheating on love like it was nothing   maybe you were smart you couldn’t be fooled by love an emotional fart   that ripped us apart   traps you in it’s

MAN

oh man I have gone over the edge And I don’t care                                      

RESCUE

like a dam bursting my spirit flows dulled by the control matrix that wants my soul my nirvana is leaking like acid you’ve fucked me up long enough my head is messed but my soul is cool i know I’ve been a fool but love is coming to the rescue……

DREAM

i had a very weird dream last night….all of a sudden…the earth was turned and churned…i looked out and i could see the acropolis down the street …but there was no street…all was huge upheavals of land and buildings…the earth had rearranged itself into a mass of contortions….mountains, cities, boulders

EMOCEANS

being in love…then it ends when it ends….then it begins when it begins…..then it ends always wanting….never satisfied never satisfied ….always wanting pushing and pulling….filling and emptying if you can stop wishing…you will never want be like a rock….calm under stress be like you’re dead…before you die before you die….live

FOOL

sitting here looking in a mirror as i type this wondering what’s next my body breaking down from abuse i never thought it would happen this soon i still think i am young but my hands look like i’m a hundred i was such a fool to think any of

PEE POT

well i’m chucking all the bills and giving away my frills dreaming about the hills but my body is breaking down like a van with too many miles so when i get it fixed heading for the sticks on route 66                

SKY

listening to you play is soothing to my soul you are so beautiful you gorgeous man may the universe bless you with all that’s peaceful blooming with the scent of rose                

NIRVANA

the bliss of relaxing after hard work & stress is soothing to the soul a glass of wine rich with divine or fresh squeezed orange juice even left over pizza even day old coffee drunken from a styrofoam cup after going through hell ordinary phenomena is nirvana      

WILD & DEEP

i love wild horses i love wild hair i love wild flowers in my hair i love wild sky windy and cool i love wild hearts free and fool wild is my nature wild is free black is my color deep like the sea deep is my love deep is

DEEP DEEP REDS

  indescribable is the passionate beauty of nature dying   death is just a word it doesn’t really exist ask the cherry tree                    

LA LA LA LA LAND

you like poetry that’s happy and gay like watching a disney movie with nothing to say just be hypnotized by the mice as they play cinderella stories not life-like decay poetry that reeks of disaster rips the mask off of your pleasant white plaster

GODDESS WHORE

i can’t wait to get drunk again and write about my pathetically sad gut wrenching lack of love life when i had nothing else to give i gave it all away…like a whore…. i guess i was expecting love in return… they must have thought there was an endless supply…they

LOST MARBLES

i lost my marbles when i was young they were very old with swirls of glitter found in an old house attic in a drawstring pouch now searching the internet for my beautiful marbles going crazy just what i needed another thing to grasp at marbles should be lost

ALONE

i remember us making love like dogs in heat in abandoned buildings then you abandoned me and your love came crashing down brick by brick by brick i stood there buried in the dark waiting for you but you never came rising from the dead drinking my blood to survive

LOTUS HEART

if i was younger i would flirt with you all day until sundown but i am missing a part of me that’s alive killed by heartache i don’t know how i even survive this dead romantic heart ripped out replaced by a lotus flower that grows in the dark

SACRIFICE

i am still alive all the dead i have eaten have given me life

PRELUDE TO A POEM

i will write a poem after i finish this beer if i’m still alive                      

ZEN

breathing in and out my lips wet with this latte staring at this screen            

NINJA

i gaze at my hand thinking about some beautiful flower petal that you would look at and see the simple beauty in the unelaborated moment of time stopping breathless a tiny flower petal falling from the eye of sky like a ninja                

MOTHER EARTH

palm trees fern and date gold diamonds and emerald sandalwood and myrrh mother earth simple in her youth lush with bounty and extravaganza as she aged into a fat ass bitch

HENDRIX

jimi you make me feel so divine with lime you purple haze my mind                  

METAMORPHOSIS

hanging by a thread waiting for my wings to spread living like i’m dead

OBSESSED

he drives me crazy everything he does the emotional roller fucking ride i can’t calm down when i get obsessed i ride this wild horse like i’m possessed i wanna run away he won’t leave me alone he thinks he loves me but it’s only his bone he fills me

ZLUEZERRY ZILL

gut wrenching tears working all my life for what wishing i was dead   fuck all the bills fuck all the frills head for the hills    

DA DA

endless bliss blue sky endless bliss stars twinkling endless bliss blissing   no job togo to no sound to hear nothing to worry about   hum hum hum hum ha ha ha ha da da da da

THE NATURAL STATE

nature is freedom only man pays for his keep as he rapes her   the natural state is mans only escape from this prison world   how do you get there as you slave working til death just disappear ?   wherever you go you have to hide your freedom

HONEY TRAP

It’s so sweet to dream I will do this and that thing My bed will be big   All the gut wrenching Mind fucks this planet observes Swimming in honey   What is this evil Trying to prevent freedom Always in control   I want to escape From the land

DIAMONDS

when i was young i didn’t know i didn’t know where i would go i never made any plans i just trusted invisible hands now youth is gone and looking back at all the trust i gave away i ended up here upside down all my love spilled to the

WITHOUT YOUR LOVE

  all the booze i don’t care drunk on myself in my despair   the memories of us so in love turned to gin again and again   when i think of us my body cries without your love my body dies dead so long without your love dead so

JAGGED

  my heart   so sweet like an angel then you broke it apart   our love flowing out like lava hot   now turned to stone   a jagged pot                        

FUCK LOVE

every time i think of us in love i cry fuck you love you made me   die

GYPSY

i am a gypsy enslaved by the matrix dying to be free   my breath of spirit my breathing of dragon fire this is ecstasy    

THIS

this blank space of light and you waiting for something this is all there is              

UNCHAINED

in the moonlight full i escape into the night and howl my freedom

BITCH OF LOVE

mother nature… the bitch of love desire is her trick she’ll make you think you need it now that’s why you have a dick you fall in love a million times as much as you have sperm all she wants is mass production love is on her terms    

RICH

MY LIFE IS RICH AND IMA BITCH GOT PLENTY TO EAT MY CRIB IS NEAT  THE MAN THAT I’M WITH I DO NOT TRUST HE’S CHEATED GAZILLIONS WITH ALL HIS LUST  MY LOVE IS DEAD FUCKING IS BORING IT’S WHAT I DREAD HE LOVES WHORING I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL CLOUD

LOVEFOOL

ZIZZY ZONG

i drink the nectar of roses then i smoke a cig i feel flashes of nirvana then i cook a pig  i wanna be celibate then i blow his mind this the hard place between a rock * i work my ass off to pay my bills i am not

JUST BE

my mind is tight now but if i drink to make it loose it will swirl into a paisley exotic and hazy and then i go crazy and wanna get outta here where the body lies cold and end this so on and on i go juggling life like a

FOO FOO

India gold and perfume Id rather sleep till noon Give me my bed I’d rather be dead Than be a slave In this grave Of foo foo

SAMSARA GOLD

leaving my cave soon heavenly sleeping till noon must put the chains on fancy gold from india and drag my ass back to samsara

BREATHLESS

icing on the window communicating sweet words of nothing like stars in the sky appearing magically disappearing silently leaving me breathlessly

DIVINE

not thinking of what to say drinking wine music so intense no pretence the sadness lingering a cat in heat calling out for love sipping wine the world is so divine…..

BOMBAY

i want to escape from this cage of illusion of expanding bars   thinking where to go only makes it more spacious there’s nowhere to run   so what do you do when you find yourself longing to go far away   take a whiff of sandalwood and bless your

LAST LOVE

Dancing  slowly with you… my dark darling death… only heartache in this realm of desire… yet we always return… to the womb.. attracted by the scent of lust….. when all desire is gone… there will be no more suffering….    

ENDLESS

my naked body stretches the coolness of space that is endless

THE BARDO CAFE

Seasons changing… spins my head all these years living….like I’m dead leaves falling like hair my body cold Snow…. like ashes… forgetting… old until remembered again and again… Channel #5 ,  Joy & Oud…. when we get to the bardo there will be food !  

POEM TO MYSELF

  sweet child of light living in this dark dark world how you have survived …. blood like molten lava heart made from the nectar of flowers….. some day you will shine in the black silent sky  

RELAX SLAVE

drinking tea from a bowl… i sit here amazed…. wind blowing through the pine trees…. a screen door separating the natural world from me….. (i didn’t want to let the bugs in) but i feel like a bug myself… in this house of dust…. while the dirt outside is clean

TO FEEL

all i have is this heart made from heartache   my blood drips as tears blind me   my invisible heart beats alone    

GREEN VERSE

who is this green queen you know…. i am queen of black who longs for the king of hearts now i know i’m not the one for you know her more what a fool i am

STILL LIFE

One sunflower not wilting still holds his head up the others look drunk

DELUSIONAL

still thinking i’m a lover and looking so hot then realize i’m not    

TOO DEEP

suspended in a state of anxiety this existence of swirling energy i wonder what it feels like to be the sun images and conceptions this wild frenzy of life take me away into deep space deep silence or maybe i should just meditate…

SHIT VERSE

i quit my shit is shit so that is it  

LIGHT VERSE

as light shimmers across an ocean of love my heart vibrates for you

RED VERSE

like  hot summer roses in bloom you intoxicates me  with your scent of love   like thorns on a rose love protects the beauty inside the heart   one without heart  like a rose without scent has no poetry                      

BROKEN VERSE

the color of life persists in the universe milarepa ate nettles the goddess tara exudes rays of compassion one speck of love bursts into a forest of trees my heart captures your beauty like a broken cup mended with love

SKY VERSE

  magnificent sky flower you open my heart and love grows inside me  

PINK VERSE

on the beach  washed up sea shells sky wide as the suns melody sand hot as crab cakes  iced lemonade lips kissed naked by your side jewels of sand glittering Amen

BLACK VERSE

black moon black sky black hole black eye black swan black horse black dog black hearse  

LANDSCAPE OF LOVE

  a washed up sea shell soothed by an ocean of tears heart pounded into sand  

MERMAID

fucked a million times by someone who never loved her what did she become living with a devil-man lust was all he knew spent his money on his obsessions wish she had listened to her intuitions now she is a mermaid living in the sea sleeping on a bed of pearls

MOON HEART

sitting here in timelessness dying i cry to think of being gone from this heaven from this hell i must have sworn to be some bodhisattva my love stones my soul like the eclipse of the moon

DANCING IN BOLLYWOOD

I am a dreamer and I imagine it’s you have I gone insane   he talks about love is he thinking of me or some beautiful young thing   thirty years in hell stripping away all my youth true love is timeless   funny how we dream self preservation dancing

NAGA LAND

dreaming i was choking inside a murky aquarium i learned to adapt breathing unworldly air my mind relaxed there must  be some naga blood flowing through my veins i saw the ganges river milky white boulder’s of emeralds rubies topaz glistening in the light did i cross the river over

FINE WINE

  * Don’t worry i am kind the kind that loves loves to relax all day * I’m not beautiful or young maybe I’m not the one but I will hold you in my arms and laugh at all your  charms love can do it all so don’t worry baby

WANNA LOVE AGAIN

it’s getting intense all the mystery of him driving me insane   i almost forgot what it’s like to be in love i just remember pain   whatever this is i wanna see it through wanna love again

RAMBLINGS OF A ROMANTIC

i’ve been dead for so long walking this earth like a zombie-slave digging my grave   to find love is so rare like a pearl in the paw of a bear   i gave up thinking it’s not real just mother natures way of sealing the deal   if i

THERE IS A MAN

are you the one sweet and juicy are you the one sensitive and smart are you the one kind and gentle my heart is beating i hear yours too are you my prince you deserve a princess you are so sweet  and romantic is it the heat i feel your

BLACK HOLE

drinking coffee now a million things left undone sitting in chaos   crystal chandelier above this table of things like the twinkling stars   cream in my coffee swirling like the milky way to the event horizon  

SHAMBHALA

i am losing touch always driving in my car looking at nature   i see the beauty it takes my breath away soon i will be dead   wasting so much time as if time did not exist take me to Shambhala

EPITOME

i was once in love i never dreamed it would end story of my life

BUTTERFLY AND SNAKE

a caterpillar in a soft cocoon sleeping until noon her wings spread across the wide bed happy to be alone the snake slitherssssss invading her privacy eating her alive but she will survive      

THE FLY

he  let a fly in the fucking fly the fucker let in i wanted to kill him and so i did but the other fucker is still alive fucking around like a dirty fly   i let the fly into my life why i felt sorry for him my house

THE JOY OF ALL GODDESSES

sweet raspberries juicy mangos the dough rolls and folds oceanic squid spray perfumed bliss licking buttery buns

MYSTICAL CHICK

the mystic dream of love in the mist like fog in a graveyard where hungry ghosts roam dreaming souless heart ripped remnants of  life remain like a chicken quivering headless            

CAN’T STAND IT

so much in love with love my heart aches so little time left so much love so much love so much love so many loveless so much pain here i am i want to fall in love to fall in love to fall in love to fall in love to

WANTING

i want to be in love i want to be in love i want to be in love i want to be in love i want to be in love i want to be in love i want to be in tlove want to be in love i want to

INSANE

i can’t believe i’m still alive living without love without passion my sanity intact i would rather be insane with love rather be insane rather be insane with love than be sane without

DEEP

i never met anyone with deep enough love only deep inside the flesh blind to my heart ache Sometimes i feel like i am the only one real forcing me to see myself as love to love me all I wanted  was to know the truth of this life why

THE LEMON SLUT SUTRA

    sucking and slurping lemon they watched with distain as the juice dripped down her chin and her lips in pain why did she eat this lemon ? it wasn’t for fame they thought she was deluded or was she insane ? she only wanted the truth they wanted

PONDERING

    ha ha ha he made me laugh so hard gave me easy things to do but the easy became difficult and the laughter pain now i sit here free from his laughter and ramblings drunk on the junk of my wild horse mind pondering memories of my guru

SHIVA AND SHAKTI

    falling in love always knew there was a mystery to solve always looking out there never looking in here at last we meet… like the eclipse of the sun….                  

FLUTTERED

  she thought she was a butterfly they thought she was a stick of butter so she fluttered away into the sea of ghee    

LIMPING KARMA

not wanting to harm i scoop ant with a napkin now he is limping (2014)                    

SUMMER

  fuschia petunias and the taste of cardamom orchids listening (2014)                  

AWAKE

    drinking tea all day i can not get to sleep tonight tomorrow is here (2014)                  

ADDICTED

  i did a painting of a naked goddess he wanted it so bad he bought it like all the hookers (2017)    

UTOPIA

rosewater on face milk with honey this is love drizzle the mid-east with opium drop flower bombs rose petals and lotus blossoms intoxicate blow their minds blast the air with love the only weapon left unused nothing else worked nothing else exists love is life life is love life is

HUNGRY GHOST

roaming around like a phenomenal apparition i wish i could just disappear love…the food of fool’s am i a hungry ghost ? i want to fall in love again like a junkie looking for a fix (2017)  

THE POETIC END

  the dry snow slides between the yellow sky each flake streaming down a copper straw the wind sifts and becomes a misty air blowing against the copper straws clanging clanging millions and zillions copper straws hanging from nowhere everywhere stars pollinate the earth liquid flowers flow nothing left but a smooth glass earth and a blue smoke swirling inside it in the beginning god created the heavens and the earth in the ending god pulled his plug (1967)          

TIME

  the rocks that rumble silently are mine earth sounds i hear beat rolls across my room i scratch the beat  that’s dead created time and weave into this solid mass time loom rock is the photograph of times ruin continuation clings like a disease yet the living sleep inside